One More Day

A stream of consciousness poem

Image: Luke Thortnton via Unsplash+

It’s an endless storm in here.
Raging like the eye of Jupiter.
Chaos all around, winds carry me,
from happiness to utter despair.

I feel like I can’t breathe.
I'm coming up for air.
Chasing that blissful ignorance,
just to get pushed down again.

Anxiety stalks me like a relentless killer,
Worries manifest from serenity.
Everywhere I go, it’s watching closely.
No peace for me. 

I fight until there's nothing left. 
Enemies attack from all sides. 
Relentless and born of hate. 
I once called them friends. 

The killer of peace smiles. 
It feeds off my pain. 
My strength runs low. 
I struggle to get back up. 

I just want control over it all,
A moment where I’m not in free fall,
This struggle suddenly feels infinite
A deep breath,  seeking my anchor.  

I step away from artificial light.
Walking downstairs, heart racing.
I hear her voice as I step outside,
she makes the killer wait inside. 

I come to this well again and again,
and yet, it never runs dry.
Every day, a new struggle,
but she’s always here. 

I look at her; I feel her touch.
I taste that peace I want so much.
The killer of peace waits for me inside,
but I can finally take it all in stride. 

A song comes on as I try to work.
The tears arrive without warning.
Planting flowers in the darkest part of me.
Her light helps them grow. 

Strength comes back.
Air fills my lungs.
Resilience returns.
The storm finally calms. 

Tomorrow is terrifying.
The killer of peace whispers unknowns.
Just take it one day at a time.
One more day. 

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